Hannah Ferrier from Below Deck Mediterranean is seen having a full-blown panic assault on the present, however it isn’t the primary time Ferrier has felt overwhelming nervousness at work.
“I f**king hate this f**king job,” Ferrier seen saying to herself in a preview clip. “This season has made me feel like, I’m losing my mind,” she says in a confessional. Cameras seize Ferrier in her bunk, inserting her hand on her brow, showing as if she’s able to move out.
A crew member checks on Ferrier. “I think … it’s a panic attack,” Ferrier replies, audibly unable to catch her breath. The scene is surprising, however this isn’t the primary time Ferrier has skilled excessive nervousness whereas on the present.
Hannah Ferrier had a panic assault throughout season 3
Ferrier turned overwhelmed when she was in a relationship with bosun Conrad Empson. She panicked as a result of she might inform she was falling for him. Captain Sandy Yawn appeared involved, which is when Ferrier admitted she was having a panic assault.
Yawn was understanding, gently telling Ferrier to not run from love. She allowed Ferrier to relaxation in her bunk whereas the crew labored. However, as soon as Ferrier returned to work Yawn turned livid when Ferrier and Empson went on a voyage with the company. Yawn instructed Ferrier she might solely go for “one Coke” however Ferrier was away from the boat for much longer.
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“I hadn’t seen her that mad. I thought her limit was the firecracker thing, it was not,” she instructed Decider.
She stated the nervousness was constructing for days
“The anxiety had been going quite badly for eight days leading up to the attack, it didn’t just come out of nowhere,” she recalled concerning the second to Decider. “What I was doing at the time [was asking], “What is different from season one to now?” And all I might suppose was Conrad.”
“Looking back and watching the season now, actually there was a lot that was different,” she continued. “We had the most vile charter guests that we have ever had. The first two weeks I was doing four hours of sleep a night consecutively. Sandy was really quite hard on me throughout the start of the season.”
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“Also you don’t get away. You can’t get away from the cameras, you can’t get away from the work environment, the charter guests just keep coming,” she stated. “In a normal job you can go home and sit down with your partner or your girlfriend and have a glass of wine and unleash and talk about it. Even when we are speaking with our families we don’t have much time. Everything just goes into your head as opposed to coming out, which is what you do in a normal scenario.”
She additionally had a panic assault throughout season 1
“It was something that happened in season 1 and I hid it a bit better then,” she admitted. “Well, quite a bit higher. It’s actually a private factor. We aren’t Housewives, these aren’t our personal lives, that is cameras following us at work.”
“The response was really amazing,” she stated. “It was disappointing to see a few people saying, ‘Oh, it’s a drama queen.’ I was like, I wouldn’t be on Bravo, I would be accepting my Oscar if I could act like that. A lot of people reached out and said, ‘I didn’t know that anyone else got the physical symptoms that I got.’ Because people don’t talk about it. There are obviously a lot of people in the world that feel really alone in terms of getting that sort of anxiety.”
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“People who don’t suffer anxiety or aren’t close to somebody, get stress and anxiety confused and they are two very different things,” she added. “So I think it was good to see people’s response that they felt less alone. And somebody who, in their eyes I guess, somebody who has a good life, travels the world, has opportunities and all of that. This year we have seen with Kate Spade and so many cases where you can have what everyone else pictures as the perfect life, especially with Instagram, this glossy perfect life and there are things going on behind closed doors that nobody knows about. I think the viewers appreciated the fact that they could see another side of me.”